The Complete Chapters of my Shattered Heaven...

poem I created for her...

Shattered Heaven

a fragile thing of unspeakable beauty... a tainted glass of unkown mystery... you mesmerize me...you blinded me... a cruel way of destiny...

like a shadow dancing in the light... like a the core of a jewel,untouched... my world is crumbling... I was lost...answers I was seeking...

like the rainbows of the moon... like the darkness of the sun... rare...once in a lifetime... I tried to reach...to figure...

I was lost...I was shattered...Everythings a blur...

SHATTERED HEAVEN

Darkness falls... Time stops... tears forever sworn to be hidden... I lament...stunned by a maiden...

Death chokes me... heaven rejects me... Im lost...nowhere to go... I reached...I failed...I fell...

Deafened by silence... Love was silent... no clues...no answers... full of questions...mysteries...unknown beauty...

Forever seemed to short for me... times running to fast... piece by piece I break down...

SHATTERED...

Shattered Heaven III

The Pieces reflect the whole

The soul slips away

No matter how hard I try...

I remain shattered

The pieces gathered

Destroyed for eternity

Lost in Oblivion

I am floating endlessly.

I no longer want to interfere

The cause is lost

my death already forseen

but my life remains unending

"The third and last part of my shattered heaven poem...hope she could read this...as to let her know...I hurt...I cry...but I wear a mask"

Angelus Pennae

Angelus Pennae

"Angel Wings"

My sun has started to set... My moon has ceast to exist... My stars have lost its glistle... My life has lost its colors...

The love I offered wasted...

The time I sacrificed forgotten...

The chaos has overwhelmed me...

The heart stopped beating...

This Heart left shattered forever...

This Dreams failed to achieve...

This Life lost its meaning...

This Angel has lost its wings...

"This is Me... after everything...I gave to her..."

Nemo Mi Impune Laccesit!!!

No one attacks me with impunity and gets away with it.... This line from the novel Cask of Ammontilado is perhaps the line that defines the anger and desire for revenge. Im all smiles I tell you...but im no saint...Im evil...Full of torturing thoughts and murderous desires...I am a cold-blooded killer..filled with the drowning screams of my victims...I am a creature of the night that dwells in the greatest fears of the people that fear me and despise me...I thirst for running blood...I bathe in anguish and suffering...I eat souls to satisfy my hunger for revenge.... I am EVIL...I am IMPERFECT...because I am human... Always expect me to be masked...feeding in every inch of fear I feel... Searching for a chance to strike... It's in my nature...It's in our nature...Brutallity is an act of coldness...but I guess im not warm-blooded...I speak words you shall hear echoing in your mind forever...words that shall break your own little world that tells you that everything would be alright... "Think Before you talk!" Or Ill rip away the very existense of your so called refuge...You may be strong but you are not invincible...The strenght of my fist might not be enough to destroy you,but I dont want to kll you with a gun pointed to your head or a knife across your neck...I want to see you beg for your dear life...I want to hold your breath in my own hands having the power to end it at will... My mask is my refuge...And you shall paint it with your own blood... You will see a person full of joy and laughters,but is ready to take away someone's...A person that is full of dreams yet willing to destroy other's...A person hoping for a better future,but nonetheless capable of destroying the future for revenge... Yes...you might despise me now dear reader...but this is me...and nonetheless you as well...This is our weakness as humans...our fragile beings hoping to be saved in the end and live eternally by being the ideal good not knowing that we are only fooling ourselves...It's not about being perfect and good in the end...but rather being able to do what is right that really counts...No matter how inhumane we are and animalistic our behavior is...The decision is still up to us...Let it overcome us...or Fight it and rather wear a mask to hide the pain and anger so as not to hurt others...but then again...everything has it's limits...and patience still runs out no matter how far... I am HUMAN...I am EVIL...but I am RIGHT...for I did what know was right...by not letting the evil in me overcome me... We are HUMANS...and saying that you are EVIL don't mean that you are WRONG...because sometimes...admitting your weakness and the truth about you is the right thing to do... So once again... I AM EVIL...I WEAR A MASK...I AM HUMAN...