Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Friday, November 14, 2008
I once created 5 poems which evolved around the darkness of humanity and personality.It was a reflection of myself. The whole 5 chapters took me 4 years to finish.from 1st year HS to 4th yr HS. I came across the poems again lately.so I decided to post them here.one by one.
The first chapter is Doubt.An evil that destroys everything before it even starts...
I doubted my abilities
by not doing what I can do best
I chained myself to a wall
and will never be free like the rest
I doubted myself
by wearing a coward's mask
I hid myself with lies
and will never be able to do any task
I doubted my Heart
Believing I am worth no one
I pierced my heart with thorns
and will never be able to love anyone
I doubted my Life
by denying my existense now and then
I isolated myself from reality
and will never be able to live again
I doubted my whole world
I doubted Everything
I was fooled that doubting was searching
Such doubt made me fear everything
The 2nd Chapter is Fear the rotting carcass of your existense.
I fear the Darkness
The Darkness of my heart
I did not risk to love
Such a complicated Art
I fear the images
Chimera in my mind
I did not risk to see
for I thought there is none to find
I fear the silence
Silence of my tears
I did not risk to listen
I decided to close my ears
I fear the Animosity
The bitterness of life
I did not risk to taste it
Everything is full of strife
I feared my own existence
Shivering with the coldness of demise
These fears made me bleed
bleed failures i dont need
The 3rd Chapter is failure the reeking scent of darkness.
I failed to subsist
and live life to the fullest
I regret denying my existence
My life's pains so endless
I failed my Persona
Someone drenched with lies
I regret wearing a mask
such a deadly game of dice
I failed my limits
Evading my own abilities
I regret Chaining myself in a mirage
I created my own frailties
I failed my heart
a heart turned to stone
I regret not loving
Glorification with a False Crown
I failed yet succeeded...
Succeeded to be Mediocre
Everything is now Crimson Red
as I get overpowered with Hatred
The 4th chapter is Hatred. The Burning sensation that slowly eats up all sanity.
I hated my Doubts
a foolish act for nothing
a sign of my great fall
I neglected what life could bring
I hated my fears
An excuse fit for cowards
The start of my great fall
I was hindered to go forward
I hated my failures
This punishment I am worth
The peak of my Great fall
I was judged harshly by Destiny
I hated myself
A man who lost all Heaven
The End of my Great fall
I only deserve to be forgotten
I hated so much
Such a Painful Ending
As the Devil in the pale moonligt dances
I lost all sense, I am slowly Dying
The last Chapter is Sense...because all darkness would soon slowly fade away...towards the light...
I was blinded by darkness
blinded by lies...
but you showed me the light
and ended my cries
I was silenced by anger
anger from pain...
but you taught me how to speak
like the fierce thunder within a gentle rain
I was deafened by cries
cries of suffering...
but you showed me how to listen
with no more fear nor doubting
I was suffocated by Enigmas
Confusion and Guilt...
but you showed me how to breathe
A paradigm of hope we have built
I was numbed by loneliness
My heart was lonely...
but you have comforted me
By promising you will never leave me
I Doubted, Feared, Failed, and Hated
Death was certain
Hope was a Caustic Friend
My suffering no more, My journey ended.
"Will you still Love me in the Morning?"
A beautiful story
starts with Once upon a time
But certain tragedies
never seem to find its own rhyme
My sweaty hands
are running out of coins to roll
I need to ask now
But I cant stop shaking, I cant make the call
A simple question
that you might even laught at
I'll write it down!
But,No..It would be just a silly blot.
If you say yes
then our story is a fairytale
If you answer otherwise
then its a book worth selling at a garage sale
you must be asleep and dreaming
Is it too late?
I must have spent too much time thinking
My mind is blocked
But I cant be moved,I wont be moved
I will keep writing
This may be the only way this love can be proved
I close my eyes
and smiled,you are such a wonderful thing
you taught me music
but now I faintly remember how to sing
I have to let this go
before my heart sank and drowns at sea
and this question...
Let this be buried in my grave with me...
whats the difference?..
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Im freakingly enjoying my time here in davao...This is perhaps the best davao trip I ever had...
10th Nationals Debate Championships was a blast...I love the experiece...I finally achieved one of my dreams...perfect...na sana...Hindi nga lang ako naka debate...sigh...anyways...I still had fun adjudicating the rounds...was sad though...I wasnt able to break.I saw lots of people...lots of old friends...lots of new friends... UP CEBU people!!! you guys(girls) are awesome! too bad davao aint used to seeing girls as ...err..*fiery* as you guys.till next time!!!party napud ta.
Nagkita din kami ni Sir Mervin Igpit!!!My HS teacher and adviser sa debating club.whew.I consider him as one of the most influential people that came to my life.tnx sir!!!kahit short time lang tayo nagkita it was relieving...
ang tatlong itlog nagkita kita na din!!! CEXAR!!!,MARVIN!!!,JULIO!!! vegas napud ta next time. text lang.I always have a great time when im with you guys...and marvin...libre na pud sa lachis ha?ha?ha?tnx!!! :D
well...everything was almost perfect...tsk tsk tsk...sige na lang...I have no place or time to discuss tragedies... it violates my spirit and my law...I am numb...and I smile...yes...I smile... kunti na lang...
Friday, September 5, 2008
I created a new multiply theme with the theme from Lordi's song HardRock Hallelujah.
"You will see the Joker will soon be the new King! Rock and Roll angels bring that Hard Rock Halellujah!"
Its a heavy metal song but im sure you will enjoy this very much.im practicing my theme creations in multiply so if you want something done...just tell me.ill be glad to try.cant promise anything though. :p
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
"Evil is a normal human personality,it is what Carl Gustav Jung describes as the Shadow.Shadow exist when there is light, so evil is the result of goodness. Light is only recognized when there is shadow or darkness.Both are necessary.."
but that would be a drag to explain...and im tired of explaing such things.hahaha.so I decided to place in random thoughts in those posts.I wonder who actually reads my posts and tries to deal with my twisted mind.
Main Entry: 1rant
Etymology: obsolete Dutch ranten, randen
intransitive verb 1 : to talk in a noisy, excited, or declamatory manner 2 : to scold vehemently
transitive verb : to utter in a bombastic declamatory fashion
— rant·er noun
— rant·ing·ly \ˈran-tiŋ-lē\ adverb
You!who reads my blog.this is actually a test post...please leave a comment when you read my blog.I want to know if this blog is actually worth my already short lived life.
anyways, more rants!haha. im getting excited in our future film viewing about the trilogy of Hannibal Lecter's story in our Theories of Personality subject. Hannibal Lecter is a Forensic Psychologist.They say the deadliest criminals are those who know about forensic psychology and high knowledge about personality theories....whew.who knows. i might be the next hannibal lecter.ngasab!
"ngars!ill eat you alive and make your skin my furniture!"
Next rant!Debate,debate,debate. sigh. Managing our debating society in our school is pretty difficult.tsk tsk tsk. we were down to 4 members then and 1 adviser then we screened for new members wherein we got 33 new members, but after 3 weeks...less than half are left...tsk tsk tsk...tough luck.But, im proud of my trainess.they are slowly learning my evil substance in debating.Bwahaha.!?! whew. anyways. We are hosting the incoming 18th Mindanao Parliamentary Debate Championships, and whew...preparations are killing me!whew...its really not that easy i tell you...tsk tsk tsk...
"Point sir!Isolation is different from separation!we are merely giving these sexual minorities an avenue or separate room to chikka!(?) not pick them all up and place them in a separate island and televise(?) them like in survivor!(?)" ((?); stands for not sure if I really did said these things.)
More!more!more rants! I pump man...yep...you heard me right...I pump!I pump iron!I go to the gym in a not so regular basis!hehe.dont blame it on me or tell me i dont have perseverance. Im a student!i need to have time for school*cough*blogging*cough*. I also have a diet plan which i follow. which i would like to keep as secret and soon sell it in the internet when it becomes effective with me and i would earn lots and lots of kaching!kaching! I would name my Diet then as *tentenenen~tenen! "Macho~te Diet Program: ang diet ng mga machong machete!" I know it sounds funny, and yes...I can see that smile of interest in your face! Im looking for people to try my diet program!dial 1-800-000-machote. call now!
"hammer and chisel needed for this workout. a huge knife and some suction devices are also necessary.We advise you see a carver before proceeding with this workout.all carved flesha cant be regained if mistakenly carved.Use the Big knife wisely...you dont want to cut just anything..."
ok...I guess its time to end this ranting...this post is getting too long already...ill end it now... ok?..ow wait...I remember.got some more rants i forgot.you wouldnt mind reading some more dont you?I know you wont mind...hehe.read on will you?if you dont...ill make your skin my furniture and your bones my milk!raaagh!
Here it goes!Ranting mania!woohoo!!!I miss someone sooo bad right now...yep...soo much...I miss a very important person...the worst thing is that we might not see each other for the next four years...tsk tsk...tough luck...life is unfair...(whoever told you its fair?)sigh. you know who you are!:D yes!you! you take care of yourself ok?its going to be a very long roller coaster ride...but ill make it through...kip safe.you know how special you are...:)
"I miss cloudhoppers... :("
Last rant for this post...im sick right now...:(...got colds and coughs and a terrible headache.Ill be emceeing the ms.College of Arts and Sciences anytime soon and I hope to emcee the Burn the Floor hip hop competition as well this july 27...hopefully. I didnt recieve any confirmation yet. Juhn Ray Quia~eo aka Jang2x! ako na ba talaga emcee nun?:D anyways...got no voice...slowly losing it...thats what im worried about...this will pass...this will pass...:)
"...shh... "(la nga ako boses diba?)
whew...got more rants but i guess ill be saving the others for my next post.hehe.teecee.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
I love this song. ^_^... oh well. ill be ranting about happiness and the beauty in pain in this post.its 2:30 am and im still alive.whew.
What is happiness?I read an interesting post(gemini encounter) answering this question. She compared it to a billion-dollar diamond that is given to you as a child. as you grow old you get tired of this diamond. you found more colorful and bigger shiny objects and decided to throw away this diamond.only to realize its importance and value when it is already gone. So you go on pursuit of this billion-dollar diamond... and that is what she refers to as true happiness.When you finally found the billion-dollar diamond you actually achieve happiness and look at that diamondin a totally different way...It is like having second chances.like being given a new life.its like being reborn again.
I admire her brilliance actually for coming up with such analogy to compare the reality of things and how we seek happiness when we already lost it.
Yes Gabby, you are very brilliant indeed.and stop telling yourself you are not. ^_^
But I realized a question after reading the post...indeed that moment of finding your lost billion-dollar diamond is very rewarding and truly a big sign of happiness and change...I ask the question...What if...What if you cant or werent able to find your long lost billion-dollar diamond?What would become of you?Would you be forever sad?Would you forever be left in misery? Here goes the great part...I realized something more... There is no assurance of finding what is already lost.
True Happiness happens or materializes the moment you realized what you have lost and took pursuit of this happiness again...But when all else fails...Misery is not the option...rather it is the act of acknowledeging the fact that "YOU" once had a billion-dollar Diamond that became a very important part of your life. This billion-dollar diamond would be in other people's hand now...atleast,Other people would be able to experience or appreciate the happiness of having a billion-dollar diamond.
difficult.but needed.Life doesnt end when your happy.When you have actually self-actualized yourself.The act of becoming a beacon of light and hope to others should become your next priority. The world dont owe us anything.rather we owe the world everything.True happiness is when the happiness you realized is channeled to others as well.
it boils down to being optimistic actually.The defense mechanism of sublimation can atest to the fact that it is indeed possible. We should be afraid of pain.hell.war.or all this negative stuff. There is beauty in pain. Recognition of happiness happens when pain surfaces and the urge to be happy is awakened. The admiration and goal to go or experience heaven is felt when we are in hell. The ultimate goal of war is Peace.Negativity kills...so smile...it helps...trust me...
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Sublimation: Transformation of negative emotions or instincts into positive actions, behavior, or emotion
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Grab the chance
the people stare
ten of hearts to ace of hearts
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Never dwell in the past for in the past. regret,guilt,anger,pain, and sadness are the only emotions found in the past.
Never look forward the future so much for Exitement is never always good for you. It brings about Anxiety and stress.
In the present, no past nor future exist. the present is the most important thing.For in the present, happiness exist.
Happiness in the context of the past is a sort of illusion. A feeling you want to experience again. And dwelling here would only lead to regret or sadness for not being in the state of happiness in the present while reminiscing the past happiness.
Happiness in the context of the future is somewhat ambitious. A big wat if. this big question of what if is the main reason for anxiety to take place and bring stress to your life. And could also be the source of regret or disappointment if this expectation of happiness fails to materialize.
Stay in the Present. Keep what makes you happy in the present. The human mind is not supposed to be used to dwell on something that is not beneficial to the well being of a person.
The beauty of the human mind is so amazing to be wasted...Only mankind was given the chance to think and comprehend. But its a waste to see mankind waste the power of such a beautiful mind.
Learn from the past. Hope for the Future. But always live for the present.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Today I decided to just simply post this pic because of one simple reason...I'm proud...yes I am proud... I'm a Youth for Christ and having your pic in the center and focused this well in the official website of the Youth for Christ would really make you proud. (Thats me pointing up in the middle.wearing black.)
Oh no,dont define what im doing now as being boastful...Im just proud, and there is nothing wrong with being proud.Its our God-given right of being proud. The way Nelson Mandela states it...
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are we NOT to be? You are children of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us.
This is the beauty of faith. Im posting this coz im proud that ive been placed in a pedestal because of my faith to God. Our God is an Awesome God... who am I to be ashamed of it.
Grabbed from Gemini Encounter it brightened up my day.so I decided not to be selfish and share it to everyone else. ^^ (gabby, pa grab ng story ha.tnx.)
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.
The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it. In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days and weeks passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.
It faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations. Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled. If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy. "Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present."
The greatest happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved - loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Summer class was up, I realized how important and "costly" education really is.
Then, Money matters, I accompanied my mom around fixing things in our land under the agrarian reform.The government is buying it. then,I realized how difficult it is to look for money.
Then came next is the best thing…I got a new phone!:p its an iPhone N85. Then I realized how wonderful parents are.
But, the saying that what comes up must go down really is true. Because this week didn’t all go smoothly… I reached a dead end…a dead end Id rather discuss privately… but came the most unexpected thing…a text message from a friend with the following quote.
"I love Dead End signs...they are so kind...they are decent enough to tell you that you are going nowhere."
This is a quote I stumbled upon lately...came in perfect timing...came almost like a music note in heavenly tune.The quote was so optimistic I smiled at the brilliance of the idea alone. It states one simple truth. Honesty really is brilliant.
Road signs such as the Dead End are full of wisdom really… it’s a matter of understanding decisions… It’s a matter of looking beyond the box. Its beyond optimism… Its Understanding. We mosly feel bad reaching dead end signs feeling that we wasted time but the truth is we should be glad because this signs didn’t let us reach the dead end itself. I consider the Dead end sign as one of the most brilliant ideas now.
This is all…ciao.till next post…got lots of ideas right now…too much ideas…
Sunday, April 6, 2008
"Power OverWhelming!!!" Bow down to me.I am capable of devastating power. I can kill you and torment you with my mind!" -such an illusion I always say.
The Expected reaction from me would be to stare down and deny all this...but I guess I have to accept the fact I really am a megalomaniac. I just have to find another way to look at it.~God made us powerful and brilliant in his image, and who are we not to manifest it anyway?
Saturday, April 5, 2008
|What Julio Czar Means|
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.
You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.
You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.
You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.
But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
WHAT IS LOVE?
1. Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And is your voice caught within your chest?
• It isn't Love, it's Like.
2. You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?• It isn't Love, it's Lust.3. Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
• It isn't Love, it's Luck.
4. Do you want them because you know they're there?
• It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.
5. Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
•It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.
6. Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
• It isn't Love, it's Pity.
7. Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
• It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.
8. Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
• It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.
9. Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
• It isn't Love, it's Friendship.
10. Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
• It isn't Love, it's a Lie.
11. Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
• It isn't Love, it's Charity.
1. Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
• Then it's Love.
2. Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
• Then it's Love.
3. Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
• Then it's Love.
4. Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
• Then it's Love.
5. Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
• Then it's Love.
6. But do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?
• Then it's Love.
7. Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
• Then it's Love.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Body aches, head hurts, runny nose, exams tommorow...what could get better than this.haha. Might as well put my time to good use by writing another blog entry.
Ive seen the world in full colors and even sepia too...but nothing compares to seeing the world in black and white...no colors....no complications...no emotions... no hate...no love...a utopian world... A world similar to the movie equilibrium where everyone living was required by law to take a drug that supresses human emotion because of one reason....they say that the source of pain and crime in the world...is human emotion selfishness,envy,hate,love, and stuff... How i wish i have a drug like that...
Why you may ask?simple...to be able to deal with the world...
Its a great relief...
to be able to stand and look at others when everyone is dying...
to be able to avoid crying when you yourself is bleeding...
to be able to suffer no more the imperfect world...
now wouldnt that be great...but what are emotions really for? are they merely a source of pain and suffering? Well recently i started to believe otheriwise...for the greatest joys of life...can be found in these imperfect emotions... and now I start to live my life with a full blast of colors...may it be dull, dark, gloomy, sunny, bright or what...its life...and I would love to experience every pain and joy of it...no more black and white pictures...
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Its been a long time since the day i stood up and left the masquerade and joined the people in the streets. It felt so good to have nothing covering your face, no masks, just your own little existense. Its a very relaxing feeling i tell you... soo relaxing its too scary to be true. People say removing the mask makes you real, but being real doesnt mean its better. I have countless masks...
When Im at school I wear a mask filled with colors, a mask painted with rainbows, a mask pleasing to others eyes. I am a social person, a person who easilly fits in a given crowd. People like me, Teachers think im smart, they say i could be a great leader and be a great person someday. But, then again, its not me. For I never liked too much company, I never liked laughing much, I never liked to be looked upon. I never liked standards of how you should live life, but reality tells me that in society...it is necessary for you to fit in, to reach the standards and be accepted. Soon the colors of this mask shall fade...but before that happens, ill use it to reach the standards...and when im on top...ill change it...then the world shall revolve in my palm...
A blank mask creates the illusion i need when people starts to get to know me...They see nothing..They see just eyes, and hear just words...no emotions...no nothing...just a blank face staring back, talking back... You might think im scared or what...but believe me...It is necessary... Its been only a few times when this mask was removed by someone...those people i call not friends...but rather blessings... For they took time to see beyond the shadows and behind the mask....someday, this mask shall be removed and placed in a box...and that day...would be the day this little red beating thing in my chest would stary trusting...
It is a logical sin to assume that being real means being true and that being true means being better... The world is imperfect...and so am I...
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Dec. 29, another historical mark in our country.heres the deal. During the trial of the magdalo soldiers on their case of mutiny and atempted mutiny for brig. gen. Lim an unexpected event happened. After the defense have asked questions for Lim the court went to a reccess.After the reccess its the prosecutions turn to cross examine,but it never reached that part. From the back Faeldon, a member of the magdalo approached Lim and said "Sir,tayo na." and stood up and started walking away.
The Justice Pimentel shouted out to the guards and escorts that "Dont let Gen. Lim to go out!" but the crazy thing is all the guards and escort just watched.Only two dared to ask and stop them but they were shrugged off easilly.It was going easy and looked plan from the start being able to reach the ground floor with little to no resistance whatsoever.
Next Scene, The streets of Makati. -Traffic was halted by uniformed officials -blocked by unidentified cars. -people were asked and persuaded to join."Kailangan kayo ng bansa nyo!samahan nyo kami!" these lines were mentioned. All over this the press followed.until they reached their next destination.HOTEL PENINSULA. rushing inside.without care for anything or the properties of the said hotel it is here that they made their so called "Stand-off". On the Government' Side. immediate reaction? "Send the PNP!not the ARMY!they might join them!" What happened next? tanks appeared. The Special Action Forces arrived. Guests of the hotel evacuated. Front gate machined gunned with 60 rounds to weaken the wall by a tank. front door banged by tank to be destroyed. hotel teargassed. Magdalo surrendered. Bishops of the church also arrested. Mediamen arrested. All this happened in one day.All part of the so called Democracy and freedom of expression. But do we really know what is Democracy?one clear thing is that the power of the people is absolute.but the rule of law is a safeguard restriction.so which should be followed?the rule of law?or the power of the people? welcome to the philippines...Happy Bonifacion Day. †Shattered.Angel†
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
poem I created for her...
a fragile thing of unspeakable beauty... a tainted glass of unkown mystery... you mesmerize me...you blinded me... a cruel way of destiny...
like a shadow dancing in the light... like a the core of a jewel,untouched... my world is crumbling... I was lost...answers I was seeking...
like the rainbows of the moon... like the darkness of the sun... rare...once in a lifetime... I tried to reach...to figure...
I was lost...I was shattered...Everythings a blur...
Darkness falls... Time stops... tears forever sworn to be hidden... I lament...stunned by a maiden...
Death chokes me... heaven rejects me... Im lost...nowhere to go... I reached...I failed...I fell...
Deafened by silence... Love was silent... no clues...no answers... full of questions...mysteries...unknown beauty...
Forever seemed to short for me... times running to fast... piece by piece I break down...
Shattered Heaven III
The Pieces reflect the whole
The soul slips away
No matter how hard I try...
I remain shattered
The pieces gathered
Destroyed for eternity
Lost in Oblivion
I am floating endlessly.
I no longer want to interfere
The cause is lost
my death already forseen
but my life remains unending
"The third and last part of my shattered heaven poem...hope she could read this...as to let her know...I hurt...I cry...but I wear a mask"
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"its not in our daily lives that we realize the importance of life but in death."
sucks right?you gotta die to really live life.In my case however I never learn...I died several times and I keep going...and going...and going.... Among my many deaths though ive learned a lesson on each rebirth I have experienced.The most important?to GO ON!Im actually lucky I died a lot of times already for each time a better me is born. let me run it down to you...
1.)Death by rope "Friends are like ropes,they either help you get up and reach the peak...or hang you in a guillotine." the box-They say more friends means more fun!wee!..fak!I have gained a lot of friends some I thought to be true,even some I thought to last forever only to find out that I was putting my trust on some true...garbage... outside the box-A handful of true friends is better than a world of oblivious,fake,and unworthy friends.Let them die!I say.but give your life to the handfull who would also give theirs for you.harsh?that's life.
2.)Death by pedestal "Your family is your pedestal,they shall be your stepping stone...but also the heviest weight you shall carry." the box-Wishing I had a better family...richer?yah...better siblings?yah...closer family ties?yah...how would you feel to be pulled down and lose your dreams because of your own family?the feeling cud kill... outside the box-My family is IMPERFECT!and im starting to love it!perfection makes life boring.besides for every problem a family face it gets stronger.losing dreams?what would you do with it if you cant share it to your family.Scream your anger to your mom,to your dad,and to your brother/s and sister/s for all I care.let it out!it gets better in awhile.why?because they are your family...the world would neglect you and puke you out but family would always be there.;)
3.)Death by heart "the heart provides the best feeling you could have.It's decietful though." the box-hearthaches suck...and when i does,it sucks bigtime!how would you feel giving your entire heart to someone only to have it shred to pieces while you could only watch and die.try loving someone who cant be yours...the death is slow.try loving someone whom you thought loves you back...this death is like cancer...you realize it when its too late...eh?whatever way it is...its death by deceit... outside the box-false love and tragic lovestories has only one thing to be blamed for...US!we fail to see the difference sometimes between "TRUE LOVE" and "INFATUATION".We invest too much feelings on things we thought was true never leaving enough love for ourselves.If all was thrown away...at least there is still some love left for ourselves...too hard to do?trying and failing is better than watching a bullet blaze towards you without nudging a bit.
4.)DEATH BY CRUCIFIXION "The cross is the symbol of sacrifice and eternal life,but nonetheless its still death said with flowery words." the box-I have no faith nor religion before...the bible for me was a a big question mark.God was a questionable being.Destiny was in my hands.I live by my rules not by some priests sermons.shocking?I know...I even shock myself and ocassionally scare me when I think bout it... outside the box-they say the seeing is believing but the truth is...to believe is to see.Im now an active leader in YFC(Youth For Christ).ironic isnt it?someone who questioned God now lives and serves in his name.1 day and 1 night was all it took for me to change and realize all this...but 3 years past before I truly understood it.
Still scared of DEATH?I laugh at death now and eat it for lunch!Death mught hurt but the treasure it offers is far more rewarding...
"Death shall be the judgement,the pain,and the end...but it is not the finality of life."