My 2nd try

My first Req Video for The Story Circle

I lived...and died...and lived again...only to die again...but still I live...

"its not in our daily lives that we realize the importance of life but in death."

sucks right?you gotta die to really live life.In my case however I never learn...I died several times and I keep going...and going...and going.... Among my many deaths though ive learned a lesson on each rebirth I have experienced.The most important?to GO ON!Im actually lucky I died a lot of times already for each time a better me is born. let me run it down to you...

1.)Death by rope "Friends are like ropes,they either help you get up and reach the peak...or hang you in a guillotine." the box-They say more friends means more fun!wee!..fak!I have gained a lot of friends some I thought to be true,even some I thought to last forever only to find out that I was putting my trust on some true...garbage... outside the box-A handful of true friends is better than a world of oblivious,fake,and unworthy friends.Let them die!I say.but give your life to the handfull who would also give theirs for you.harsh?that's life.

2.)Death by pedestal "Your family is your pedestal,they shall be your stepping stone...but also the heviest weight you shall carry." the box-Wishing I had a better family...richer?yah...better siblings?yah...closer family ties?yah...how would you feel to be pulled down and lose your dreams because of your own family?the feeling cud kill... outside the box-My family is IMPERFECT!and im starting to love it!perfection makes life boring.besides for every problem a family face it gets stronger.losing dreams?what would you do with it if you cant share it to your family.Scream your anger to your mom,to your dad,and to your brother/s and sister/s for all I care.let it out!it gets better in awhile.why?because they are your family...the world would neglect you and puke you out but family would always be there.;)

3.)Death by heart "the heart provides the best feeling you could have.It's decietful though." the box-hearthaches suck...and when i does,it sucks bigtime!how would you feel giving your entire heart to someone only to have it shred to pieces while you could only watch and die.try loving someone who cant be yours...the death is slow.try loving someone whom you thought loves you back...this death is like cancer...you realize it when its too late...eh?whatever way it is...its death by deceit... outside the box-false love and tragic lovestories has only one thing to be blamed for...US!we fail to see the difference sometimes between "TRUE LOVE" and "INFATUATION".We invest too much feelings on things we thought was true never leaving enough love for ourselves.If all was thrown away...at least there is still some love left for ourselves...too hard to do?trying and failing is better than watching a bullet blaze towards you without nudging a bit.

4.)DEATH BY CRUCIFIXION "The cross is the symbol of sacrifice and eternal life,but nonetheless its still death said with flowery words." the box-I have no faith nor religion before...the bible for me was a a big question mark.God was a questionable being.Destiny was in my hands.I live by my rules not by some priests sermons.shocking?I know...I even shock myself and ocassionally scare me when I think bout it... outside the box-they say the seeing is believing but the truth is...to believe is to see.Im now an active leader in YFC(Youth For Christ).ironic isnt it?someone who questioned God now lives and serves in his name.1 day and 1 night was all it took for me to change and realize all this...but 3 years past before I truly understood it.

Still scared of DEATH?I laugh at death now and eat it for lunch!Death mught hurt but the treasure it offers is far more rewarding...

"Death shall be the judgement,the pain,and the end...but it is not the finality of life."

questio ut exsisto donatus chance amore

questio ut exsisto donatus chance amore seeking to be given the chance to love.

you created a gap between us.you tortured me with your presence coz I can only look at you.I torment in you silence not knowing what your thinking.dying in your smile for you smile not for me.I am falling in a deep pit everytime you look back for i know thats all the attention I can get from you...

ferrum of vita quod suus inevitable opera

ferrum of vita quod suus inevitable opera

"the irony of life and its inevitable pains"

When life hits you hard with reasons...you need to decide...go...or stop... dammit...how come when you decided to give up life bombards you with reason to go on? arrghh...how come when you decide to go on life bombards tou with reasons to give up? its hard to be played with by destiny...

Life is such an unforgiving thing...It gives the hopes of everything yet takes it all away when you decide to seek it.

Take the human body for example and its main life source "Oxygen". Oxygen gives life to the human body and it is the main ingredient for a lot of body processes of a person.The only drawback is that...Oxygen...have this decaying factor that everytime we inhale...we decay...and you cant stop breathing coz u need it...In short...We need the very thing that kills us...

Life is meant to end...And the moment we hold on to it...we deny proper respect to our life...

"Lost obvius universitas of diligo"

"Lost obvius universitas of diligo" A day of struggle and seeking for the right path... Chasing without knowing if you could catch up. I just wish that Im on the right path...That Im not falling for false hopes and daydreams that are impossible. Time seems to be Death who got his scythe on my neck.Life seems too short now...or should I say 24 hours...

Nunc Scio Quit Sit Amor...

shit...life sucks...destiny has a way of giving what you wanted on tight and late times...why did this happen when everythings already too late...If I could just rewind life and go back in time..."Nunc scio quit sit amor..." Now I know what love is...

My Intro at The Story Circle

†Vita convulsus Angelus† (Life of a Shattered Angel)

Im Julio Czar Monteron...currently an incoming 2nd year college student from The University of Southern Mindanao.I study currently in North Cotabato but Davao remains my one true home.

The First Draw of the Cards...

Im a card gamer for a very long time and has been introduced to some great card handlings as a kid, but only in my highschool days in ateneo de davao that i started to look at cards in a different way...in a way some people never thought possible.in a way most consider as magic.

It all began when I saw a simle trick in the net(mystical aces) and tried it at school. The trick was for me before just for fun.but after the reactions I recieved and the feeling of control that I experienced....I got addicted.Cards became my bestfriend thus it became my favorite card pharaphernalia.It is then that I looked at cards as an extension of my imagination not just a piece of paper or plastic.

The turn of the cards...

At school we were considered as the best:having gaining friends who do magic as well and popularity, All my knowledge came from my friends and the internet... for I got little or no access at all to any type of high quality magic before. I werent satisfied anyomore.I wanted to look for something I would consider as another stepping stone for a higher understanding of magic. I've been searching for it...for a long time...and few satisfied my thirst for quality magic... Magic is like a deck of cards...youll never know what you will get...or maybe we do...

Street Magic became my past time and I consider it as an escape from what I call "The reality of the joker" Its a term I made meaning that life like a joker is not with all the facepaints and laughs but when he no longer wears those. As a magician you can run wild your imagination...create a reality that people would want to understand.An understanding that could influence other's people about the realness of believing in things you never thought possible like dreams.

I dream to hold a deck in my hand and use it...not only for entertainment but for learning...

Im a born actor...and my stage is the streets...and my props are the cards...and the rest of the cast?the world.Patter is perhaps the most important thing in magic.I believe that Magic is 80% acting and 20% card handling.its how you draw your audience to believing that what you just did is real that matters not how much he or she is awed on the quickness of your hands...

"Never say its impossible...just do some patter..."

This is my story...What's yours?

-†ShatteredAngel†-

Julio Czar Monteron

ps. Never hold a deck in your hand...hold it in your heart...and the rest shall follow...